Weight Loss/Maintenance

You have worked so so hard ---at times when you were having all those complications I felt so torn for you and wondered if what I saw as your suffering was worth it....Now years later when I see your posts I see you as such a role model for commitment and determination. We pretty much started at the same place with our weight. I investigated all the surgeries and was ready to make the leap when my insurance refused me. I got really pissed....but didn't have the fight in me to take them on. Instead I went with a medically supervised program that has been the only thing that has ever worked for me. I drink the shakes, eat the veg and protein and try to forget that I'm hungry most of the time. I know it's hunger in the head...but regardless... I know it will be a demon I will co exist with for the rest of my life.

I still look at other women and wonder ....am I as big or as small as her.
Not in a judgie way...but just to get a better sense of where I am and what my body looks like. My mirror is still unreliable. I can't wait for that day when I'm surprised.