Cancer Support

...you guys are wonderful. The reality of what happened hasn't really sunken in yet. I have never lived alone in my life. I was married to another wonderful woman for 19 yrs before I married Carol. Today was filled with activity preparing for her funeral, notifying the many close friends we have, and taking care of business. I will have to deal with the grief that I am trying to stave off by staying busy because I know it's coming. I have no experience in dealing with such profound grief and I fear it will hit me like a ton of bricks once I am alone at home. I get emotional pretty easily, but I wear my tears as a badge of honor because they are for a very special person that I have loved for many years.

Her brother and sister are here to help me take care of her final needs. In fact, in less than 24 hrs, they have arranged both her funeral and a memorial service. When the dust settles and everyone is gone, I don't know what I'll experience. I have never really experienced depression. My soul mate has been taken from me. She was my best friend as well as my wife. We have spent most everyday of our lives together.

How does one deal with that? If any of you have any suggestions on how to best deal with the grief that is imminent, please lend me your knowledge.