Transition planning and thoughts [View all]

Haven't seen much on this, if this is the wrong place to post it or it is considered insensitive, let me know and I will delete. Sort of a maudlin note this evening.
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It has become apparent to me that it is time to make the major change I have been dreading. For years I have been living out in the boondocks by myself. Its pretty clear that cannot go on. I have a homestead that needs hands on which I am no longer truly capable. I am also 30 minutes from the nearest paramedics and hospital care. Negotiations are underway to sell it and its heartbreaking.

This place has been the longest term home I have ever had. It is where my wife and I found new joy, purpose, and happiness. It is also where she later died (breast cancer) with all of us gathered around her. Its where I built new relationships and fellowshiped with many new people. Tonight has the crispness only found in the desert. A rawness and reality you rarely see elsewhere. The coyotes are out and I think I spotted one of the cougars earlier. Leaving here is perhaps my greatest fear and heartbreak.