it truly is an addiction [View all]

Warning: TL;DR

I have to do something to get this anxiety out, so I write, and post it. Please know that I don't wish to offend anyone who has lived through addiction. Mine may be ridiculously mild compared to others, but it's hard to fight. I know it's not as hard to kick as other addictions, but in my life, it's the real thing.

I realized how bad it is because of what began last Thursday when my wife, Kathy, was admitted to the hospital. I always drink cola,* but beginning that day I started guzzling it. Truly guzzling it. Kathy was released today; on the way home she asked for a treat from 7-11. I also grabbed a bottle of cola. It was gone before we got home. It didn't take long for the craving to set in again.

Here I am, sitting in bed and trying hard to ignore the colas in the garage. The effort to quell the craving finally drove me to the meds for a prescribed anxiety pill. It hasn't kicked in yet.


* I won't use its name for fear of threats of lawsuits for defamation.