Loss, lies, confliction, confusion, fakeness, struggles, hardship... [View all]

Don't know how to post anymore. All my mojo is gone.

I have something to say, but I don't know what it is. Can't express myself. It's a horrible feeling.

Life is a series of losses.

Surely there is something more.

This is why I believe in God. MY God. My vision of who God is. Not anyone else's vision. My vision. Not the church's vision.

Because surely, there is something better than this. Surely.

I've experienced some losses of people in my life recently, and it's fucking killing me. It stuns me, it numbs me. Spent my whole life surrounded my people who loved me. They're all gone now. How the fuck is a human to cope with that?

Depression. Avoid it at all cost. It's a fucking bitch.

That's why I drop out of here once in awhile. I just don't know what to say anymore.

And when I do post...I complain. I've never complained so much in my fucking life.

Don't respond. Just rec this post if you are feeling me.

I'll probably have to take another break.

I'm giving up. Can't pretend all is good. Nothing is real to me anymore.

"Who was dragged down by the stone."