and partially because of the way I'm feeling tonight.

Things will look up (they have to! they can't look anymore down!) But seriously, i hope you feel better. Trying to be kind & gentle with yourself?

I try...but it never fucking works.

By the way, I appreciated your comments on a certain thread.

We just gotta be kind to ourself. We just gotta. We're with us all the time, we gotta be friends with us. If it dont work, try again, a little easier. I try to remember to treat myself like a friend treats me. I dont know if i'm the type to get into the loving myself bit, but i have learned to like myself more, give myself a little room to breathe and stretch and be, because i just had to. to live and find some kind of acceptable sanity in myself and in this world! Not preaching, just sharing...

that I like myself, and I expect others to treat me the way I treat myself...but that's elusive.

It's true what they say about expectations...if you don't have any, you'll never be disappointed.

And in the worse times, I wonder why the hell I like myself anyway.

Maybe what I offer isn't worth as much as I think it is.

In fact, in the big picture...I guess I know it's not worth anything at all.

Sorry, I'm just having a bad time. getting too philosophical here.

i dont think anybody really does their best. I know that everything i do that's good for me and makes me feel better i do haltingly and imperfect;y. I've had a rough couple days myself and right now because of our chat i'm going to take my own advice and meditate a little, do a little stretching, get a snack, find a good movie to watch, and go to bed (what will be) early for me. And try to remember to breathe throughout all that!

Guess I identified with it somewhat.